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Weight Loss Wed errr Thursday

I forgot to weigh yesterday before we started our whirlwind day. We left home at 9:30 and didn't get home until 7:00. It was a long time to be out with all 5 kidlets so when I got home I just had to rest. lol Especially since Nahli thought that it was a good idea to scream non stop for about 15 minutes after we got home, incidentally those 15 minutes were the time it took me to make supper. After she'd eaten she was a whole other child. Yep hunger can make you a bit grumpy. And the reason she'd been upset is that she'd asked for stuff to eat and I'd put her off with, "after supper you can have cookies/chips/popsicles/poptarts. (Yes I was hungry when I bought groceries last night so I bought a lot of junk for the kidlets lol naughty me). So lesson learned, don't let her get hungry to the point of meltdown, a snack in the van on the way home would have headed off the screaming.

So, anyway, I weighed this morning instead and my new weight is 179.2! WoooHooo! A loss! Down from 181.2 so a 2 pound loss. And again I learn that when I excersize (oh hush, Tony) I lose weight. This weekend I rode my bike while wearing children and went for a realllllllllllly long walk of about 3 or 4 miles also while wearing a child. LOL My weights are my children. And let me just tell you that riding a bike while wearing a 35 pound child is a completely different thing than just riding a bike.

Weight Loss Wednesday

Not this week. I gained 2 so am back at 181.2. This week I got lazy and didn't exercise and wasn't very careful about how much I ate.

I've been watching Biggest Loser and last night at the weigh in I thought how hard it would be to be working your butt off and only lose 2 pounds. Yikes!

So for me, at least I know why I didn't lose and I will try harder this week. I have added incentive to lose now, because Tony told me last night that he has a family thing coming up at the Academy and I want to be much smaller before I get introduced to his new friends.

Family sadness

I am very sad and a bit scared right now. I just got off the phone with my mom and she was telling me about my grandma. My grandma has dementia, and is getting worse by the day. Right now she lives alone in a Seniors apartment. It seems that she is going to need to move to a nursing home sooner rather than later.

She is either taking her meds twice or not at all, she is walking in to other people's apartments and she can't remember that my Aunt Yvonne is dead (and my Aunt Yvonne died 35-40 years ago.)

This last week she was not at home and she came out of the bedroom she was staying in in hysterics, "Where's Jolene, I can't find Jolene, I lost her, I'm a horrible mother..."

This is bad for two reasons. The first is that Jolene is my sister and her granddaughter not her daughter. She has for a while now confused my sister's name with her daughter's name. And the second reason is that her daughter (my Aunt Yvonne) has been dead for a long time.

I think that in her confusion she knows that she lost Yvonne to death, but all she remembers is that she lost her and so is in panic, desperately searching for her daughter. My heart hurts at the thought of this.

My Grandma has ever been so independent and now the thought of having her live in a nursing home and taking her independence away is so hard.

Part of the reason this is so hard for me is that my other Grandma was dead in under a year after being moved to a nursing home, because she just gave up on life. She loved where she was living, but her children (my dad's siblings) decided that they couldn't keep paying for her to live where she was and so moved her to a nursing home. She felt discarded and unwanted. I believe in my heart that she decided to die so she wouldn't be a burden anymore.

Oh God, I don't want to lose my Grandma.

Weight Loss Wednesday

I LOST!!!

Yay! I'm going down again. I am now 179.2 down 2.2 from last week.

This week I rode my bike a couple of times and went for 2 walks. Exercise is key.

I'm doing well on eliminating dairy and now that Tony is away I've completely eliminated dairy for all of us. I'm hoping to see improvement in all of us with out having to resort to a TED. However, I don't think that will be the case. Tavis is reacting to something, his last poo was Sat or Sun and he has the allergy ring. I think that eliminating things here and there is so hard for me, it would be easier, I think, to have a list of things that we can have, than the opposite.

Something to think about for this week.

Weight loss Wednesday

Or not. I gained this week, I'm now 181.4. Up 1.4 from last week.

I need to exercise more, when I exercise I lose. So there you have it.

Well he's gone

Tony's gone for 13 weeks, starting last night. That is a bit deceptive, he will be home weekends as much as we can afford the gas. But still....

Tristan is taking it really hard, which is to be expected since Tristan is the most sensitive of all my kidlets.

Tony is also taking it hard, he really misses all of us and tonight when he called he asked me if he's doing the right thing. I told him that of course he is.

It was so cute, I put Tony on speaker when he called and when Tavis heard Tony, he just lit up. It was just beautiful. Tavis doesn't talk much but he was talking to his daddy. Then he grabbed the phone and started kissing it, he wasn't chewing on it at all, just the sweet, open mouthed, baby kiss. Tony told him,"don't start walking yet, just wait until the day after I come back." I said, "what about on a Sat? would that be OK?" Tony then said, "All right, but wait for a Sat. OK?" And Tavis said, "OK" I'm not kidding, it was clear as anything. And Tony heard it too.

Kids and Horses

My kids have become quite good Horsepeople. LOL They are riding very well. On Friday we went to my dad's to ride and the kids were the only ones who rode. Well I did ride for about 5 minutes, but the stirrup was rubbing on my ankle and I was in no mood to be injured so I got off.

The only problem we had was that Kaia kept forgetting to hold on to the reins which was actually ok because she was riding Kasey.

They all had their horses trotting and Dria even stayed on during a brief "wow this is so much fun" buck from Sultan.